The TuLipa

Dear me, Im sorry for what Ive put you through last year. Im sorry for what I’ve done to your precious life. Im sorry for all the lonely nights. Im sorry for making you believe you weren’t worthy of feeling happy. Im sorry how you felt the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurt you. I’ve read your long journal pages and im sorry to read that you’re ready to die you don’t deserve to feel this way. Im sorry for hating your body im sorry for hating the way you laughed. Im sorry you had to doubt yourself and most of all im sorry people made you feel like you weren’t enough for their love.  And to all the people in my life, Im sorry for the person I’ve become, sometimes i keep my feelings to myself because i cant form the words to describe them in. Im sorry for being a burden im sorry for being so insecure and boring. I don’t talk to a lot of you anymore and the saddest part is, we used to talk everyday.  Im willing to cut my heart up for you to wear if you wanted to but

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.  A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.  A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. 💯